One thing I’m going to ask God when I get to heaven is “How come I felt so alone while doing Your work?”
I find myself feeling alone…often. I bet you do too.
Isolated…defined as “far away from other people; remote; having minimal contact or little in common with others”. Yup, that’s it in a nutshell, I feel like I have a lot in common with the other women in church, but for some reason they must not agree. Like when they have a LuLaRoe party, and are all excited to try on the clothes and get some comfy leggings…I want comfy leggings. Why can’t I go? Why wasn’t I on the guest list? For some reason, they must not think I’m “crazy” enough for the patterns. I don’t know…
Single-handed…Like when I run my kids to all their activities because of meetings that keep dad busy. Feeling like a single parent, I rush to make dinner for everyone so they can quickly scatter to their different corners of the house to do whatever it is they do. I single-handedly clear off the table, wash the dishes, and pack tomorrow’s lunches.
Lonely…Or how about when I feel alone when I go to bed at night…alone in a bed that I share. A bed that I share with a husband that is supposed to be in relationship with me and is just too exhausted to have a deep(er) conversation with me than the simple, “Good night sweetheart, hope you sleep well.” Lonely.
Have you felt this at times? Please don’t say I’m alone on this too!
I LOVE Kari Jobe’s song, (appropriately named) “I Am Not Alone”. Here is the video for you to watch and soak in the words.
Kari’s song reminds me of this:
- God is with us during the dark times!
- God always goes BEFORE us
- God fights EVERY battle for us
- God is amazing
- God is my redeemer
- God calls me His own!
- God is my strength
- God is my defender
- God is my security
- God is forever faithful
- God is my healer
- God NEVER leaves me
Now THAT helps me to refocus on truth, that I am NOT alone..there may be moments that I feel like I am, but truth must be told…Jesus’ exact words to his disciples in Matthew 28:20, “I am with you always, even unto the end of the world!” He is present, He is near, He understands loneliness, separation, and isolation. He is a God who keeps His promise to never leave me, to never forsake me. People may fail us friends, but God NEVER does! And I wouldn’t trade that for those wacky-patterned leggings any day!