That is the question a lot of people in ministry can find themselves asking often.
Sometimes we wonder why God has called us to ministry in the first place. Then there’s being called to a certain place you would never pick for yourself. There’s being called into a certain field that scares you. But the hardest time of all, can be the calling to waiting on answers to the questions of your calling. Waiting on him to call you in the first place, or to something different.
Then there are the times where it doesn’t feel like anything good is happening. How could God be in this? What am I doing wrong?
Let me tell you a little bit of my story:
I am a 26-year-old wife of a pastor and children’s director . I love Jesus and I also love to be in control. When it comes to trials in my life, they mostly take the shape of illness, which can hinder my ministry. That can make me question God’s plan.
I’ve been in and out of doctor’s offices many times since getting married in 2016, but the thing i’ve been there for the most has been my mental illness.
I knew I had anxiety disorder years ago, but just recently I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder. It was such a relief to be diagnosed and given the right treatment, however, sometimes it hurts to know that a good portion of people in the church would probably look at me differently because of it.
Sometimes I cry because I have this disorder, but I know that I have it for a reason and that God does have a plan. I try to take things into my own hands sometimes and that is when I get overwhelmed. When I don’t trust God and yield to him, things get messy
“Be still in the presence of The Lord,
And wait patiently for him to act.”
Be still. That is very difficult for me. I like to be in control. I like to know everything that is going to happen, down to the minute.
Wait patiently. Just wait. He’s God. He has perfect timing. He knows. . Wait patiently.
For me, this is hard when dealing with bipolar episodes and feeingl like I am out of control, or when it feels like God is calling me out of my comfort zone.
Your husband is being disrespected by a member of the church?
Be still and pray . Trust in him.
David wrote the Psalms and he had a lot of trials. He knew how hard it was to trust in God, but he did and he instructed us to do the same.
The waiting period is only that, a period. A season. God has something amazing in store, if we just wait and trust in him. Wait for him to act. It’s worth it.