Love of Money

Love of Money 1.29

Jesus Loves Me This I know. But do I Love Him more than my Money?

For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs. But as for you, O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, and gentleness.  1 Timothy 6:10-11

I am a sucker for sales and coupons. Truth is that they “suck” me in. For years, I would have never acknowledged that I had a problem or issue with regard to money and how I was using it.  After all, I was buying much needed stuff. You know, cute outfits for the kids, a piece of home décor or five here and there. This was all with the intent of making our nest cozier of course. Then there were the never-ending Kohl’s discounts and Kohl’s cash!!! Ladies, I hope you are beginning to see that there was a problem. The manner in which I viewed money as well as how I was spending it was oh so impulsive. May I never justify but explain briefly. I grew up in a non-Christian home where I was not taught anything regarding money. I came from a family where the budget was meager but if there was a need or want, there was always the plastic to pay with. I watched and observed although it became somewhat confusing.  Money and stuff in exchange for real relationships.

Fast forward to life as a wife and mother and I began to use shopping as an outlet of escape. It felt like the more I saw, the more I wanted. You get the picture. I would feel God asking me, “What are you trying to fill with this and why?” My heart was convicted and I would say that I was sorry to Him who I felt beckoning me towards Himself.  I would cry out, “How can I honor you better in this God?” He gently began to show me that it was not the stuff of the world that I cared so much about but that I was using the stuff to fill this void in my soul. I had so much unresolved pain that I needed to have healed and spending was just the Band-Aid of choice that I was using at the time.  Which is why this Scripture resonates with me:

For the love of money (or stuff) is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.

The Scripture then goes on in verse 11 explaining what the man or woman of God should flee as well as what we are to pursue. These include righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, and gentleness. Yes Lord, this is what I want to pursue. How about you, ladies?

I have since learned that money is and will never be something that can fix the deepest longing of my soul, which Christ intended to fill Himself. I have also learned that money, in itself, is not evil but how one chooses to use or abuse it makes all the difference. God is faithful to respond when he sees our repentant heart before Him.

~Denise

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