After 14 years of ministry in Kenya, our lives have been full of joy, sorrow, encouragement, fear and so many other emotions. We have been through so many ups and downs. God took our little plans for our ministry and expanded them into more than we ever could have imagined. In 2012, everything was going gangbusters and growing like crazy. We never could have imagined what was coming next.
Our youngest son was born with a hole in is heart which we had been monitoring both in the US and in Kenya. One day we were told that the doctors were recommending a catheter procedure to close the hole which would be much less invasive than open heart surgery.
After the procedure, the doctor came out and said there was a problem and that they were not able to close the hole so they were going to have schedule an open heart surgery at a later date. Within 24 hours, our son suffered a stroke and seizures from the trauma that the procedure took on his 2 year old little body. All of a sudden our world stopped moving and we were in crisis. The doctor said he would have permanent brain damage, and recovery would be slow and they didn’t know if he would regain the use of his right side or learn how to speak.
In that moment, we froze. Stunned, scared, and brokenhearted, there weren’t enough emotions that could sum up the feeling we felt. After melting in each other’s arms and crying and praying, my husband said “We can either be bitter at God, or we can choose to trust him.” Believe me, the first choice was the easier reaction and the one that my heart was begging me to take. We prayed and told God that we would walk with Him through whatever our son’s life would look like from that point on.
Sometimes God takes a hard right turn in our lives just when we thing we are going down the right path. We are happy and comfortable and God allows something to come in and change us in ways we never could have imagined and make us cling to him. This is when God turns to us and says “Be still and know that I am God.” It is in those moments when it is the hardest to be still because we are panicked and out of control. But his words still whisper, “Be still.”
God wants us to surrender to him and realize that our life is better in his grip than ours. He holds our future and he wants what’s best for us. God through his grace has seen to heal our son completely and teach us a big lesson in trust. In any season of life, we have to be still and know that He is God. Even when it goes against everything we hold dear and love.
Psalm 46:10 ~ “Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth.”