Trusting in the Unknown

Unknown Future

Psalm 9:10 And those who know Your name will put their trust in You, For You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.

Recently I have been struggling with my “roles”. You see I have long tried to prioritize my life in order to reflect how God presents things in His Word. For example, my number one priority is my own personal relationship with Christ. Second is my role as wife, third as mother, fourth as missionary. Not to say it is easy to keep my priorities straight, but at least I know what they are and have a goal to reach!

My struggle lately, however, is in my role as daughter. The Bible clearly teaches us to honor our parents. We often quote this verse to children and apply it only to them as well. But is there a time limit on the honoring? I don’t believe so. So what happens when I reach a stage of life where my parents need more of my time and care?

Last month, I was privileged to be able to return to the States for a couple of weeks in order to spend time with my parents and participate in my father’s retirement service. What a blessing to see and hear so many people share about how God has used Dad in their lives. At the same time, it was an emotional time as my sisters and I saw firsthand how Parkinson’s and prostate cancer is weakening my father physically. Always a man to serve others, now Dad is forced to ask for help from others in several areas. As a daughter, I felt privileged to be able to help in whatever way I could. But then my trip was over and I returned to my family and ministry on the mission field. Of course I was glad to be reunited with my husband and children and return to the ministries I love. But how I wish I could also be with my parents as they enter this new phase of life and deal with physical struggles.

As I wrestle with my roles and what God would have us do as a family, I return time and again to the fact that just as God has been with my parents and my own family every step of this journey we call life, He continues and will continue to be there in the unknown future. Wherever we go, He is already there. Right now I do not know how God will lead. I’d love to see the game plan. But what I do know is that God is worthy of my trust and will not leave me or my family stranded. And for now that is enough.

~Jenn

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