hate change

I Hate Change

Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

I’ve always been a person who hates change. I like my comfort zone and going out of it freaks me out.

Last year, the church that my husband was on staff at, was really struggling. We weren’t growing, in fact, we were shrinking. We didn’t feel like we were reaching our city. Our senior pastor took a sabbatical and when he came back, he presented an idea of merging with another church. I’m sure you can guess my reaction. “No way.” I said.

Fast forward to present day and I’m over-all glad we made the move. Sure, there are differences that I don’t care for, but we gained such a great family of people.  The only problem is, this church is also shrinking and not reaching our community. My husband’s ministry is starting to dwindle down and we aren’t sure where we are going next, but we know we need to move on sometime in the near future. That terrifies me. I hate change, I hate not knowing what the future holds, I hate feeling like things may fail when they do change.

This week at youth group, my husband was preaching a sermon and it happened to be on change. Then I realized our monthly prompt for Breathe Ministry was change. Then came the text from a student. “This will be our last week at church. We have felt like we should attend a church in our own city for a while. I don’t want to leave, but I know we need to. I guess the message this week was a sign from God. I love you guys and I will really miss you.”

If that’s not a sign for me, I don’t know what is. God has a plan and he knows what he’s doing. We just have to obey. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that I want to be on God’s side, walking in his word, building disciples and spreading The Gospel. Whatever that looks like, I’m there. He knows what He’s doing. I will always have God and my husband. That is all I need.

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